I feel like I have gone from an Alanis Morissette melancholic in prevailing mood song to a Natasha Bedingfield promising and hopeful song in less than an hour! After a long wait and a series of phone calls to my doctor on the results of my MRI, she finally referred me with an Orthopedic Surgeon. Today was the moment of truth and as nervous as I was to hear it, I was ready to receive it. I honestly thought that my weight gain was going to be a big concern to the OS and that my surgery would have to be put in the back burner until I reached a certain healthy weight, but that was not the case. The OS that saw me was incredibly professional and most of all very thoughtful. He reassured me that everything was going to be fine and that there was no need to put me on hold because I need my knee to be able to be healthy again.

Since my knee was injured over a year ago. They’re going to try and get some graft (replacement tissue) from my calves or upper thigh to restore the lost ligament. The recovery will be a little bit more painful but that is alright with me! As long as they drug me up I will be alright.

I have mixed emotions about this much needed surgery – happy, excited, scared. Most importantly, I am looking forward towards my life once my knee is healed. I have come to appreciate so many things while being immobile… especially my knee. My freedom, my passion, my life, and my boyfriend. I am excited to get the ball rolling and literally be back on me feet. I honestly don’t know what would’ve been of me without Dion and my annoying sisters. Won’t miss being their chauffeur that’s for sure!

So in the meanwhile I will be watching what I stuff down my throat just to get used to riding the high healthy wave that will follow during recovery. Have basic cardio exercises done in bed already bookmarked as my favorites, 20 minute healthy recipes, and ice to munch on if I get cravings. No worries, I already know that munching ice is bad for your teeth so I will not do it often. I got this!